Conversations with Bug

Bug is his nickname he may be almost 25 but his functioning level begs to differ. It is apparent in our many conversations.

The other day I was out spending time with my Mom I get a call, a frantic Bug is on the other line telling me that I better have a plan to get him out of the United States by 2017. Because he says the government will try to microchip him. Um OK I tell him I will be home soon. When I get home he tells me all about being microchipped and is is possible he has one in him now?   Since, I feel I was already losing ground in this conversation I tell him if you were microchipped by the government I would be on the phone yelling fix him! He started laughing. He left shortly after so the conversation ended.

The next day I was in the shower and he comes in the bathroom. (No he doesn't get it about the shower) proceeds to tell me that he is never leaving the United States. I roll my eyes and tell him first you are saying I need to have a plan to get you out of the US now you are saying you are never leaving. Make up your mind. He then starts saying he isn't getting on a plane and he isn't stepping foot on one of those big boats either because they will get a current and sink. I interject cruise ship and tidal wave and he says yeah a tsunami. I am just speechless and thoughtless at this point where he starts we aren't going zip lining either or rock climbing unless it is in a mall. A mall? You don't rock climb in a mall. Well then I want to go snowboarding. I said you do know snowboarding isn't bunny slopes. Oh yes they are he replies back. I am standing there wondering why I even tried to shower. He leaves I get out he is still taking to me through the door.

He said I should go air softing with him. I say paint ball. He says paintball leaves bruises. Reminding him of shooting me about a week ago I look down and remind him I still have one from when he shot me. He just laughs it off and goes on about all the airsoft I need to buy. I tell him I will rent "if" we go. He ignores me and runs down the list to buy then disappears into his room.

Carbon Monoxide Poisoning

In this type of weather is colder our furnaces are working harder and space heaters are in use. There is also a risk of carbon monoxide.

It is odorless and has no scent. There really is no warning unless there is a detector in your home. Even more then one. It is a more serious issue that needs to be addressed. I read today that 3 children had carbon monoxide poisoning and two have already died. You all know my feelings on carbon monoxide poisoning and how serious of an issue it really is.

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Cleveland Wastes More Money

So as if it wasn't bad enough last week to hear that my beloved city of Cleveland is spending 10 million to build a walkway downtown now I hear they are spending 32 million on Public Square. Yes, I know something needs to be done to Public Square. Something seriously has needed for years to be done to the areas before you enter downtown already. But, for years all we hear is there is no money. Well all the sudden there are millions. Instead of taking care of the areas around town and redoing Hopkins Airport areas they are wasting it again for downtown.

This has disgusted me for years. People have to travel through the areas that look like slums before they get downtown. Don't you think they would do something about that? No that would to them be a waste because instead of thinking about the people who live in Cleveland they care more about the high class and the money makers who come to town.

What about the residents who live here? Seriously, the ones who work downtown are the ones who most benefit. I haven't been to Tower City in years now.  I don't go downtown unless I need to for something.

They aren't improving it for anyone but themselves at the point. Money is better spent on a few new homeless shelters, deal with the boarded houses, fix the store fronts, clean up the dumping grounds. 32 million on Public Square when the money needs to be spent elsewhere. Elsewhere where the money is "needed" not because it is wanted.

Cleveland has a big problem putting the "needs" before the "wants" I don't think that will ever change.

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New Year 2015

Since I promised myself I would write more this year. Trying to figure out what to write about isn't easy. So much to write about hard to pick a subject.

As we move into 2015 we need to realize we aren't going to be without challenges. We will have new ones, after we finish moving through our old ones.

We need to realize these challenges are needed in our lives. We also need to realize they aren't punishments. They are learning steps in our life. Stepping stones so to speak.

Life cannot just remain stagnant. It has to move and change just as everything around us does. Growth is a wonderful thing but, not without some challenges. Let them take place see them through.

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Mental Illness Doesn't Discriminate

As the world was shocked and stunned of Robin Williams death I thought about the mental illness that drove him to commit suicide.

I also thought about our son who is also bipolar. How we got him though his teen years. The whole family did. We knew the risk and we were extra diligent in making sure he was stable. I think I still do.

I know as a teen growing up my bipolar caused me to be suicidal. I was able to hide it well. I also had this block that made sure I didn't go though with it. One night I did though. My Mother by the grace of her intuition knew something was wrong and was able to stop me. Was I weak then? I don't really know. The carbon monoxide took a lot of my memory. But when I heard about Robin Williams I had flashbacks. Like demons coming out of the closet to tell you "guess what we are still here". Yes thanks a lot for that.

We all have our demons to deal with. Depression is the hardest one. It has impacted my family in more ways then one. Impacted it very deeply. From some out of the blue knowledge I learned to control my bipolar. I know when I get depressed if it is internal (chemical imbalance) or external (something in every day life).  I am not on any meds for it. Goddess knows I was on enough as a kid. Plus when they tried to put me on something my moods went up and down like a roller coaster. To the point in which I was literally crying over split milk. I felt horrible. I feel I need to rephrase that I FELT HORRIBLE! Ok there that is better. My doctor said try it for a few more days well I told the doctor where to sick it. They decided to try medication for my depression after the carbon monoxide. I told them I did not need a mood stabilizing medication. I was fine I knew why I was upset. I had carbon monoxide poisoning and from here on out my life was going to be one big rock in my path. I also had a doctor that let all my health deteriorate for the 4 years that he decided there are no after effects of carbon monoxide poisoning. Yes, well that was that.  So yes I was depressed.

Control was a big part of it and resilience. I wish I was able to teach our son that. But , we have tried. Right now he is 24 but since he functions 8-14 we still have a teen and we still have to be vilagent.

Today when he found out Robin Williams died he says "How can he be depressed? He is rich". I told him Depression doesn't discriminate. Rich, poor, black, white it doesn't matter. That is what I keep telling you when you say I would be happy if I was rich. I told him as he is now he is never satisfied with anything and it would be that way if you were rich. It doesn't matter who you are you are not immune to depression.

I told him sadly our family knows that all to well. Maybe that is why I walk on eggshells daily to keep him stable. Do I think he would do that? No and it is for one reason and one reason alone, that is that he knew someone very close to him who is no longer around. Except in spirit. He is always there watching him and making sure he is ok.

Being depressed isn't just a state of mind. People tell you to get up snap out of it. But, sadly for some their mind is only surrounded in a deep dark abyss. In their mind everything around them is wrong, negative or just not worth it anymore. It is hard to reach people when they are like that.

The important thing we need to do is to celebrate live and be vilagent of people around us and their suffering and depression. To not let it get to the deep abyss. We ourselves also need to understand when we need help and to get it. Many of use are still in the stereotype of being weak if they ask for help You need to understand your weakness will lead to strength. You just have to take the first step.