Alzheimer's it is a disease we hear and see daily. It seems to be a part of everyone's lives almost like cancer. If you don't have it someone in the family does. It eats away at your feelings, emotions, and your heart.
My Dad has Alzheimer's. Yeah I admitted it to my friends a few months ago. It was hard. I guess you would call it a stage. I didn't want to tell people about it because if I did it would be true and I would have to deal with it. It is true and it is hard to even think about it let alone deal with it.
I cannot fathom how it would be in a few months. I don't want to face that truth it is too hard. Being and empath it is a challenge to understand and accept what is going on. I want to stop it in it's tracks. Freeze it anything to take it away. I want to absorb it out of him. I tell the universe let me have it not him. They won't listen they just tell me I am next in line because of the carbon monoxide poisoning. Thanks I tell them. I want it out of him I don't care about my life I just want his to be. I want him to be living and enjoying life. Right now he won't go anywhere. You can't force him and if you try it will stress him out which he doesn't need.
Cures aren't coming soon enough. They are going though so much red tape. I see a bleak future for those in the final stages. Something has to be done sooner. We need to work faster and harder to freeze or obliterate it all together. That is my one wish since I can't take it from him and you know I won't stop trying.
Right now he has skin cancer and we are going to be dealing with that soon. Sometimes we have to be strong for those around us. Sometimes we have to realize that acceptance is harder as the disease progresses. Sometimes we need to realize that reality is staring us in the face and fate is laughing at us when we are trying to be positive. Sadly there is no positive.
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